hi...how are you?

me??....i..i am fine here....perhaps...
a bit tired, lazy...and helpless....

everyday go out at 12pm and come back by 8++pm...
when i am in the ktm....i am wondering that..is this what we called life??
 a working life?? a life that makes you look 10 years older?
all the workers who going back by train....

i do not see that any enjoyment from them..???? enjoyment?? wait......
if you really love your job...what will you feel after finishing your job everyday?
well....i guess....for me,i will feel satisfied for today...and cant wait for my job tomorrow....
????????? really??

but they look like exhausted......this is NO LIFE......
everyday has a same feeling...
come back to home from work....o man!! finally reach home!!!....feel super tired today...damn...i am lazy to do anything....just wanna rest rest n REST.....internet....facebook...youtube...go to bed........
second day..sunrise...force to wake up...force to jam in road / pack in the train....rush to company...start working....
repeat repeat n REPEAT the same thing....even though during weekend..u will feel lazy to go out also...just stay at home...nothing to do...then how?? online again....go through the facebook home page again and again....concern about others' life.....how are they doing recently?....are their life wonderful?......again and again.....does anyone comment in my status or picture?....did any news i miss out in facebook?....again and again....just like i wanna be the 1st person or i wanna know the news as soon as possible......

holly shit!!! what is the purpose of doing this???

today is 22 June...
i haven't got any call for the interview....
but some of my friends have got their first job....

not feeling good is because...i am so.....useless??.....
i am lack of confidence.....

i am wondering again.....who can i share my fears or worries with.....
yaya...now i only know why my blog is always full of my emotionless....
hahhaa...is pity? because i cant find anyone to share my emotionless??
or should i be happy...because my blog wont let others know how weak i m??

anyway...this is really ridiculous....
i keep repeating the same song.....