today everything is FUCK!!

arrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
getting crazy because of........

i feel super guilty now....
what can i do to rescue the gps????

i really hate 事不关己!!!
i really hate everything is out of my control!!
i really hate..................

傻。。流浪。。

有时候，流浪需要一股傻劲。。跟在傻劲后面的就是叫冲动。。
这股劲让你有勇气去追求自己的梦想，什么都不用多想~~

有时候，想多了只会让你怯步，应而“梦想”就真正成为了你的“梦”想。。。

few days ago, i was talking with yumi. I was surprise that she has a same dream with me, which is taking a working holidays visa in New Zealand. At that moment, i was really happy and excited, because i just felt like, FINALLY, finally i got that person!! The person that i was looking for such a long long time~~A person that i cant wait to share my dream to her/him~~The person that i cant wait for achieve our dream together~~
and before the day i told to yumi, i was very blue.....i was thinking abt how to achieve my dream while i look at other was working so hard to get close to their dream....

At the end of the conversation,  we promise to achieve our dream together~ mean that we go New Zealand together next year~~

but who knows???? i really worry abt both of us...coz i know us so well....we keep changing every moment...jsut because we think of the bad sides more then the good sides.....

i guess....if everything can be simple....after the conversation...u have no idea how much i wish i can get a air ticket n fly to NZ straight away....

hope everything will be in the plan~~pls~~yumi ee,,dun change your mind~~please~~~=)

我爱上了流浪的感觉...

有一种人,天生身上就留着一种血....叫着流浪...
是一种趋向自由的精神...

而最近的我...这种感觉越来越强烈...也越来越按压不住.....

i have decided who i gonna be....so just wave goodbye n wish me well....no matter how, you gonna let me go....
i wanna be strong b4 i start chasing my dream~~~wish me luck~~=D

初恋这件小事First_loveสิ่งเล็กๆ ที่เรียกว่ารัก

刘若英 一辈子的孤单

发现。。如果有那么一个夜晚。。你emo了。。
想找人谈谈心。。看完全部facebook 和 msn 的friendlist。。。竟然发现，真真可以聊心事的朋友。。又有几个??
repeating the same song....again n again agian....over n over again...

我想。。最大的问题是我自己吧...太害怕被人背叛吗？从几时的我。。变得如此害怕被伤害，如此害怕让别人知道我的烦脑。。。如此害怕。。。与人分享我的心事？？

记不起来了。。。到底是发生了什么事？？

就这样积累着。。唯一能做的就是一个一个把它们给遗忘。。。这不就是我最拿手的吗。。。

一辈子的孤单。。。

丢了。。

如果可以丢了。。
丢了全部。。。害怕，责任，别人的眼光。。。

如果我再自私一点。。。
也许我就不用这样烦了。。。

如果当年的我自私一点，那今天的我会在哪里呢？？

如果今天的我不自私一点，那以后的我又在哪里呢？？

JUST LET ME GO OUT!! LET ME FLY TO MY FREEDOM!!

发现只要你觉得这世上的都是好人，那你就会过得很开心

i like my thursday~~

i went to utar and collected my result statement~then after that i was rush to the Great Eastern which located at jalan ampang for the interview at 5pm~

when i reached the GE was only 4pm, then i just sit lobby there~ 

a aunt came to me n chat with me, she said she is from klang aslo, n her husband is working at GE~~

she is really friendly~

b4 i chat with her, i was worry n nervous abt the interview...but after chatting with her, i was relaxed~i really wanna say thank you to her, she did help me a lot indirectly~~=)

around 4:30pm, the aunt left n i also went to the hr department~~

fill up all the firms then just wait for the interviewer come~

when i was sitting at the interview room, i kept praying that the interviewer is a girl~

just feel like the female interviewer is  more easy to get understand~

end up~one guy n two girls interviewers~

for this interview~what i wanna say is~seem like my hobbies help me a lot~they are quite interested in my hobbies, especially the jujitsu n also rock climbing~

they said CRM is quite suit me~ really? at first....haha~i know myself, just like sometime will get into the blur blur situation, n my mind is just go blank~totally cant absorb what they were saying n just keeping saying, yaya i know....=.='''.....kinda sweat~

CRM stands for customer relationship management~ the job scope includes that i need to find the potential customer as well~but one thing i dun really understand is, i thought to find the potential customer is belong to agent job duties????

if u asked me what do i think of the interview n what is the probability tat i could get the job?

hmmmmm......hmmm.....hmmmmmm......i really dun know~

anyway, yesterday was really my good good day~

during the interview n all the way back home, i was very very happy n relaxed, n that feeling came from my heart~~~=D~~just like you cant control yourself to SMILEEE~~I LIKE THIS FEELING~~hahaa~when the stranger saw i was smiling, they smile at me too~~

didnt have such a feeling for quite a long time~~

4 August 2011, no matter what the result of the interview is~~I M GLADE TO HAVE THIS WONDERFUL DAY~~~just cant stop SMILING~~~~~=D

what is love?

i'm wondering what the charm of the love is.....
how come it can damage a man so easily...it makes them become so....so weak....

this is what i noticed...
"he" is referring to those guys who is controlled by the feeling of LOVE....

his heart becomes so small so small....
it just like the girl is the only thing he concerns about...
doesn't he think about his family, friends, work, interests,......???

every time i see he posts how sad he is because of the girl....blar blar blar n blar...
i give my full sympathy to him....

erm.....is really difficult for me to understand it....
maybe is i protect my heart too carefully~~dun wanna make myself headaches...
because it is really dangerous.....terrible....

hi...how are you?

me??....i..i am fine here....perhaps...
a bit tired, lazy...and helpless....

everyday go out at 12pm and come back by 8++pm...
when i am in the ktm....i am wondering that..is this what we called life??
 a working life?? a life that makes you look 10 years older?
all the workers who going back by train....

i do not see that any enjoyment from them..???? enjoyment?? wait......
if you really love your job...what will you feel after finishing your job everyday?
well....i guess....for me,i will feel satisfied for today...and cant wait for my job tomorrow....
????????? really??

but they look like exhausted......this is NO LIFE......
everyday has a same feeling...
come back to home from work....o man!! finally reach home!!!....feel super tired today...damn...i am lazy to do anything....just wanna rest rest n REST.....internet....facebook...youtube...go to bed........
second day..sunrise...force to wake up...force to jam in road / pack in the train....rush to company...start working....
repeat repeat n REPEAT the same thing....even though during weekend..u will feel lazy to go out also...just stay at home...nothing to do...then how?? online again....go through the facebook home page again and again....concern about others' life.....how are they doing recently?....are their life wonderful?......again and again.....does anyone comment in my status or picture?....did any news i miss out in facebook?....again and again....just like i wanna be the 1st person or i wanna know the news as soon as possible......

holly shit!!! what is the purpose of doing this???

today is 22 June...
i haven't got any call for the interview....
but some of my friends have got their first job....

not feeling good is because...i am so.....useless??.....
i am lack of confidence.....

i am wondering again.....who can i share my fears or worries with.....
yaya...now i only know why my blog is always full of my emotionless....
hahhaa...is pity? because i cant find anyone to share my emotionless??
or should i be happy...because my blog wont let others know how weak i m??

anyway...this is really ridiculous....
i keep repeating the same song.....

Deeper Conversation~

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind 
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world 
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too 

if you dont mind 
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world 
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

if you dont mind 
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world 
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

4x
Deeper Conversation
let me

if Love was a person....

If Love was a person, how do you think he or she would be like? 

If Love was a person, I think it  would be a guy with normal appearance...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy like to spread his love everywhere...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy with a big dream...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy always knows what he wants...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy that love his lover all the time...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy that like to share his happiness and fears with his love one...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy that like to see stars...

If Love was a person, I think it would be a guy with white color...

If I met this person, I think I would punch on his face no doubt...and asked him where the F were you going this few years??

i will miss u all~

really wanna say thank you to u all....
without u all....my uni life wont be so colorful....
i....i miss the every single moment that we have been together...
laugh together, crazy together, study together, play together, sad together....

maybe i need some time to get used to the time that we wont meet each others like usual.....
wake up...go to sch...eat...study....chitchat...
start from today.....
5--4--3--2--1......i back to alone....

no idea.....is this called life???
does everyone has the same feeling with me??
or just i myself too emotional...

that day i was packing my stuff ...
suddenly i realized that the reason y i hated packing...
is because that i unlike the feeling....
the feeling that i m going to leave everyone...
the feeling  that i m going to leave a place that i m ady familiar to it...

suddenly feel like....i m so lonely...

no idea??

feel like wanna write a daily now....but just no idea what topic to write tonight....

ok la~just decided~tonight topic is "CinCai"~~yeahhh~~

damn hot recently~~hot until i also tak boleh tahan this weather~~
                               hot until im not willing to study~~
                               hot makes me lazy to do anything...just lie down and let it sweat all day~~

                               HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT  DAMN HOT MAN!!..=.=''

come come pecat pecat come~~shit la~~15may is coming soon n u haven't come yet??????
                                                  pls  pls pls~~i need u now~~i m running out of time ady~~~
                                                  u dun come then how am i going to play tat day??!!
                                                  wuwuwuwuuuuu~~i dun wanna waste my money....

                                                 SHIT LA...WILL IT BE MY 2ND TIME?? I DUN WANT LA...=.=''

buy not buy buy not buy buy not buy~~ishzzz...no idea how many thousand hundred times this question
                                                            has been ask by me myself...
                                                           sien arr~~
                                                         
                                                          THEN SHOULD I BUY OR NOT??....FAINT!! ...=.=''

bored bored bored bored~~no mood to study n not feel like wanna sleep~~
                                           arrrrrrrrrr~~~wanna get crazy ady~~~
     
                                           YEAH~~I LIKE CRAZY~~=.=''

The Mountain --- by Terje Sorgjerd

This is so AMAZING !!!
really cant find a word to describe how beautiful it is~~

last two days...

what a pre-graduate emo night with a touching song...
everyone is emo-ing in facebook...
i wonder is 3 years seems to be too short or time passed too fast??

i will miss u all..miss the moment tat we have been together...
so glad to know u all...

Masquerade Night~~^^

what a great experience in yesterday ball night~~
everyone was sooo beautiful and handsome~~
hahaa~some one said ball night is just a place that let's us have a chance to dress up ourself~
haha~tat is so truth man~spent money and show how beautiful we are~~


although tat is only a fews minutes~but u really give me tat romantic feeling~
ya~i know~i know tat night is tat night~and today we all have to back to normal~
but i wanna say thank you to you~thanks for giving me a unforgettable ball night?? haha~maybe~~
the funny thing is~i didnt even see his face~~><~maybe tat is a good thing for me~who knows~~=)

胜强~thanks~~

today is monday...

today is week 14 monday,
means this week is the last lecture and tutorial week..
means final final exam is coming soon...
means our phuket trip is coming soon...

means we are going to separate soon...

today is week 14 monday,
is the day that i cant wait for...
cant wait for tonight ball night...
hopefully everyone can have fun today..

today is week 14 monday,
i have quit fb since 2 weeks ago..
i found out tat tat is not difficult if u wanna quit something tat u are ady addicted in...
it just depends on u wanna do or not do...

one more month to go...

today is week 14 monday,
still thinking should i buy dslr or not...
i really wish to have one..
but i m not willing to pay for the expensive price...
i m in a dilemma...

today is week 14 monday,
the sky is not very clear..
what a misty morning...

today is week 14 monday,
me is still me...
work hard n play hard...
add oil add oil !!!~ ^^

if i die young..

suddenly i think of this question...
what if....i die young...

erm...i think there will be a lots of things come out in my mind..
something tat i wanna do but i didnt..
something tat i wanna say out but i didnt..
something tat i wanna.........
just something tat i wanna...but i didnt...

there are so many things tat i haven't tried and done before..
so pls...pls dun let me die young...

i really love my life, people around me and myself...




**************
i dun wanna be a person who die 1st...
coz this is so cruel for the person tat who love me and i love them too...

dead might be easy...but for the person who love u to accept the fact is so difficult...
dead might only take fews second...but for the person who love u need to take 2 years 5 years or even longer to accept the fact...

                                              **************

i...i think even 10 years 20 years...i also cant accept the fact...

virgo...

haha~i have no idea how much i hate myself to be a virgo girl...

virgo??
haiz..what virgo wants is perfection..
what is in her imagination is also perfection...
so better dun let her imagine anything~
coz the more she imagine, the more she will get hurt..
then after that she will force herself to forget everything which doesn't match her imagination..

then she waits and waits again...
waits the one who match her perfection...

when time goes on...
virgo is still virgo...

such a ridiculous plus stupid virgo...

Graduate Photo Shooting~^^

hahahahaa~today we are soo happy~~
really take a lots of pictures~
All AS student are getting closer and closer~~

cant believe that we are going to graduate soon...
i will miss u guys~~~

 COZ U ALL ARE SOOOOO NICE!!!~~^^

growth up...

"我要一个懂我的你..
我要彼此都懂彼此的自己!!

我要一个让我成长的你..
更要一个不断成长的自己!!


我要一个让我开心的你..
更要一个发自内心快乐的自己!!


我要一个让我心甘情愿的你..
更要一个对自己诚实也不欺骗自己感觉的自己!!

我要我们的关系继续加温..
更要一个让大家心中都有彼此发展空间的自己!!

我要自由,我要我们都能很自由自在..
因为人本身都需要各自发展的自由,来发掘更多美好的过程!!

我要美好回忆都属于彼此,
永远都那么怀念着..珍惜着彼此发生过地点滴!! "

QUOTES BY YUMI...
  
learn to love yourself before you want others to love you..=)

想起..

昨晚临睡前，突然想起了我爱上爬上的原因。。
第一个让我爱上爬山的理由。。

不是雾，不是日出。。
而是夜里的星星。。

那时我对自己说。。以后我爬山的目的，将会是为了它们而来。。
然了，自从林明山后。。日子久了。。只记得自己爱上了爬山，却忘了星星们。。

深夜。。
繁荣的城市里，没有星星。。只有孤独的月亮。。
落后的小镇里，虽然没有城市的热闹，却有着让人忘不了的星空。。

where is my starry night?

starry starry night...........Vincent by Don Mclean

but...
where is my starry night?
long long long time...
i didn't event find a single star in kl night...

kinda miss tat starry night...
that feeling is just like...
they were so close to you...and you could touch them easily..

they are so bright..like always...
they are so beautiful..like always...
they are so far..like always...
they are so important to me..like always...

i really miss u~my starry night~~
hopefully i can see you soon~~

What Can I Do?

I haven't slept at all in days 

It's been so long since we've talked 

And I have been here many times 

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong 

What can I do to make you love me 

What can I do to make you care 

What can I say to make you feel this 

What can I do to get you there 

There's only so much I can take 

And I just got to let it go 

And who knows I might feel better 

If I don't try and I don't hope 

What can I do to make you love me 

What can I do to make you care 

What can I say to make you feel this 

What can I do to get you there 

No more waiting, No more aching 

No more fighting, No more trying 

Maybe there's nothing more to say 

And in a funny way I'm calm 

Because the power is not mine 

I'm just gonna let it fly 

What can I do to make you love me 

What can I do to make you care 

What can I say to make you feel this 

What can I do to get you there 

Love me.. 

                                                     
                                                        ...i fall in love with a stranger...

i m a stupid girl...

i m such a stupid girl...
i have no idea what i m doing now...
it is just....
i m sad..coz i cant believe that...
it is just 4 days!! we just knew each other 4 days ago?!
then why he become so important for me??
why??..i keep asking myself what happened to you??
did u really know that guy?? of course not!!
then y u keep thinking abt him and totally lose of urself??
check fb every half hour ? 15 mins?  just wanna know whether he did reply ur message??
hi stupid girl!! how come u become so irrational..

i dun know...sometimes, he really makes me wanna cry.
i m stupid bcoz ...mayb i m just a normal girl for him...but what u treat him as??

ok..i can tell u tat..i do not run..so dont u....

again..i believe that time will bring everything away...
agian..open ur black box..throw everything inside...then start ur life again...











                                      GoodBye..J.T

tonight~maybe tomorrow...

y3s3 week 5 is coming soon,but tonight i totally dun have the feeling of study...although i know that i should not be like this....


sometimes, i was thinking...everyone has his/her own lifestyle..a different lifestyle bring them a different experience...so that everyone is unique...
due to this factor..we should start to be independent..everyone should be...

sometimes, i wont jealous ppl who got such a exciting/ wonderful/ unforgettable/ blar blar blar experience...
i dont hope one day when i look back myself and suddenly realize that i had miss so many thing in my life..

sometimes, i might just need to remind myself...nobody knows they still can survive how long in this world...just do what u wanna do...hahaaa~yaya, i know...talk is always easy..this is truth...i wonder when i can really do what i wanna do...how simply is we just follow our heart?? how many of you can do it??
good question.....



tonight i dun have a study mood....maybe tomorrow i will have...maybe not....who knows??....just myself....
GOOD LUCK MY GIRL~